“No need to do anything. Just be. Just surrender.”

[Bahasa Indonesia]

a.k.a Longing (II)

There were five of us
He spoke of sincerity, of acceptance, of returning to purity
Of the Truth that we forever long for
Whether we know it or not

I sat in silence, eyes closed
Trying to sense the feeling that exists
That doesn’t feel like it exists

There is a wall standing
Between me and what I want to feel
The presence that I want to feel
I want. I long. I long to long
I don’t know what, it’s inexplicable
There is a wall standing, that I cannot tear down

I expressed this helplessness
I asked what I needed to do
A response was offered, light, with a dash of smile
No need to do anything. Just be. Just surrender.

My smile bloomed
For others, the comment may be dismissed
Because it sounded belittling
But for me, the remark was a heartening invitation

That magnifies the longing
I long more
But I know the more I long
The more I need to let go
One of the biggest paradoxes in my life

To be able to truly move, one needs to be in stillness
Because true movement is rooted in stillness
To be able to truly express, one needs to be in silence
Because true expression is rooted in silence
To be able to truly embrace, one needs to let go
To be able to truly make an effort, one needs to surrender

To be able to truly love, one needs to long
Because longing is rooted in love

My eyelids opened, my smile bloomed
My steps lightened, my heart warmed, and it spreads throughout my being

The longing is still well in tact
And has even become more apparent
But what’s apparent is no longer seen as a heavy burden
My sight and hearing is no longer on the burden
They has shifted to what is beyond it. Beautiful

The longing is a guide and a ride
Me to You, I really believe that
And for me, there is “no need to do anything. Just be. Just surrender.”
The only way to reach You.

“To reach You.” As if there is a destination there
while I am still here, sometimes it feels so far away

When in truth, me to You, is from here, to here
The longest journey to the nearest destination

.and I, have you to accompany me.


.kangen.

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