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Begini aku kamu

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Begini aku melihatmu

Malaikat yang telah lama mewujud dalam cakrawala kesadaranku. Semakin lama semakin terang bersinar, semakin berwarna, semakin solid, semakin lembut. Berlebihan, ujarmu? Mungkin. Namun tak kutemukan frase lain untuk menggambarkan dirimu.

Apa-adamu. Jaim-mu. Senyum tawamu. Harumu. Candamu. Seriusmu. Biasamu. Istimewamu. Riangmu. Laramu. Jarakmu. Dekatmu. Sapamu. Senyapmu. Gerakmu. Diammu. Adamu. Hilangmu. Lugasmu. Lembutmu. Seimbang sempurna.
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I am saying goodbye

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I am saying goodbye to the you in my mind. The you that I have shaped in the forms of subjective memories and impressions. The you that I have been secretly holding so close to myseld. I am letting go of the boundaries that I have put around you and around us. For I sense the vast praire which you and I can roam about, far beyond those boundaries.
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[dis]honesty

“Honesty.” The word was offered by a friend as a topic for a blog post. I sat with it almost the whole day today. What I realised is that I know very little of what it means. What kept coming up were two words: Truth, and Heart.

How interesting.

To many, myself included, being honest means to not lie. To say what we think — never mind the consequences, or whether it is hurting those around us or even ourselves.

But is that what honesty really means? Or is there more to it than just saying bluntly what’s on top of our mind, or gut? Is what we feel really what we feel or is it only what we think we feel? If it is not, are we then still expressing honesty? Is there any difference between blurting out our pain body and honesty? Are you with me on this?
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“Love and relationship”

image1What a sexy topic – proposed by a friend when I asked for ideas on what to write. Lots of things came to mind upon hearing this topic. One stood out this morning as I put the intention to write this post: my talks during the first six month course in Beshara, which dealt with that very topic of Love.

First, a prelude. How wonderful it is for us to fall in love. To love and be loved – a natural inclination in any being. The emotion is so intense. A natural happy potion that intoxicates every single cell in the body, and mind.

That old song from the Foreigner “I want to know what love is, I want you to show me” has finally found its response. Someone is showing us. Sometimes, they are showing us, however, that this ain’t it. March on.
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Listen

I remember this conversation from many moons ago.

A consultant came to her supervisor and said, “Tell me, what are the key skills of successful consultants?”
Her supervisor said, “Listening.”
“Okay, what else?” she immediately said upon hearing this.

Her supervisor responded, “You’re not listening.”

Beautiful, beautiful response.

If I do not wake up the next morning

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They say
“If everyday you wake up thinking
this could be the last day of your life,
one day you will be right.”

So if I do not wake up the next morning

Let me tell you a tale of an aspiring servant
Whose restlessness would not subside
Until she is one with her true Love

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Worthwhile

185840_10150977689717379_360543478_n-1I have been supporting Nila Tanzil Petersen in her amazing initiative to set up community libraries in the remote areas in eastern Indonesia, named, Rainbow Reading Garden (Taman Bacaan Pelangi) since its inception.

But it wasn’t until two years ago, when I went with her and another friend, Metta, to Flores to visit the libraries, that I realised what she was doing. The one in this picture is the library about an hour from Labuan Bajo town, which is an hour by smaller plane from Bali.
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“Comms specialist” no more

A couple of months ago, I was asked to write an article for magdalene.co. I did. The editor asked if I could provide a short bio to go with the article. It took me a while to write it.

That was when I realised, I could not write me as “a communications specialist” anymore.
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Show me how to read Qur’an

IMG_0133“What is the idea that the world to needs to know? What is that core idea that is fresh and unique to you?” That questions just refused to left me. I first heard it when I was watching Chris Anderson’s talk at TED about what makes a great talk, great. I have been pondering about them since then. On and off, of course.

The other night that questions came up again. So I posed them as a question to myself. I waited for a response. It came in the form of a distant memory: of me sitting before the Ka’baah in Mecca, Saudi Arabia, in 2003, asking God for a favor, “Show me how to read the Qur’an. Because I don’t believe that God who is The Compassionate, The Merciful, is as strict and vengeful as they say You are.”

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